out with the old, in with the new
@ 12:05 a.m.
i can't believe the time already, the day's pretty much over. what a long and pretty stressful day. i spent almost 12 hours at work. i had no idea today would be a long day when it started, it didn't seem like it would be that way, but it did. we were supposed to let her go at 10 but it didn't happen until about 11 instead. the manager was supposed to chat with her real briefly to her let know that we were letting her go, and then afterwards speak to HR. Well, manager came in at 11 instead so it ended up being late. then i was stuck in a meeting, a rather unimportant and unnecessary meeting - don't know why it was even necessary honestly - until about 12pm, what a waste of time. had to clean up her desk after she was gone... i couldn't believe how many post-its were there. at least 5 for a file, and about 50 or 100 more stray ones, not even kidding... and then i found a stack of maybe 300 that she was ... what... collecting?? why was she collecting post-its?? i've never hated post-its so much. it was ridiculous, even post-it inventors would be appalled that she turned a perfectly useful invention into useless trash. i felt pretty bad about the whole thing, cause i mean, i know i was directly (at least partially) responsible for her being let go. but then i had her do something really basic and simple this morning, and she made another mistake. something we've been over multiple times that i explained to her before, on more than one occasion. i emailed her about it. she made a bunch of notes and put that info in there, and yet when it comes to execution, she still can't do it right. still makes the same fucking mistake again. so then i decided that she really brought this on herself. i wanted to like her, but she just made it impossible. my manager told me that when she briefly chatted with her, she was still mentioning that she hadn't received enough training (so i guess it wasn't right to let her go because we didn't give her a chance?), but the problem is that we trained her on the most basic of things, and she would still be constantly making mistakes... how could she possibly expect that we could jsut forget that and train her more things when she can't get the basics right?? I even told her this outright in an email, still, she expects that i train her more shit?? i feel like she didn't recognize how much she sucked at her job, and still tried to blame getting fired on us. how oblivious can you be? and i wasn't the only one that thought she was bad, i mean the previous supervisor partially quit because of the stress in dealing with her. i found some google chat messages she had with one of the guys at our company. i can't remember the exact things said now, but the gist of it is that she could tell i thought she was dumb (cause she was asking dumb questions!) and i guess she felt stressed out about the whole thing. so i mean, she obviously could sense she wasn't doing a great job, yet she still couldn't stop making the same fucking mistakes over and over again. ugh, i guess i'm getting a little mad, for really no reason at all. it's done and over with, i don't have to deal with it anymore, but i guess reflecting upon it makes me upset. i am probably upset most of all that i had to be put in that position. that i was responsible for someone, and when they weren't doing a good job, i was forced to become the bad guy that fires them. fuck. so new guy is supposed to start tomorrow. i'm crossing my fingers and sincerely hoping he will work out because i really need things to settle down at work, and this is the first step towards it. i can't keep feeling like i'm stuck in limbo.
it's now time to relax... listening to a little nine inch nails before it's bed time and then i start my fucking day all over again. oh yeah, speaking of that, i was soooo happy when i heard somewhat damaged starting to play on that walking dead episode... TOO FUCKED UP TO CARE ANYMORE!! yeah you tell em Trent.