02-07-23 // end of freedom
06-16-22 // I do not even
06-06-22 // rabbit hole?
05-23-22 // ff
03-21-22 // the GDC entry
04-20-20 // Re: Indecision2009
04-09-20 // 523
04-01-20 // past the five year mark
06-17-19 // Ralph Banana's
03-06-19 // I'm not suicidal
10-08-18 // 519
05-29-18 // kittens
03-10-18 // changing my life
02-10-18 // actually it's 3 years... also more than 3 years.
02-08-18 // happy
04-12-17 // duty / wasteful?
04-11-17 // bye bye green house
03-31-17 // Gilmore Girls
08-29-16 // usui takumi
04-08-16 // music
03-29-16 // yeah, a weed problem or
03-12-16 // emptiness
08-24-15 // pregnant
07-28-15 // out with the old, in with the new
07-25-15 // work, life, etc.
04-01-15 // 504
03-17-15 // (depressed over mondays and music)
03-05-15 // training a new girl
02-11-15 // want
02-09-15 // birthdays and in life
02-04-15 // 499
02-03-15 // 498
02-02-15 // trade me
01-23-15 // weed&ocd
12-25-14 // living
12-09-14 // 494
11-19-14 // 493
11-18-14 // 492
06-17-14 // vegas
05-23-14 // 490
05-13-14 // 489
05-12-14 // mother
05-09-14 // 487
04-29-14 // y=0
04-21-14 // backbone
03-19-14 // 484
07-18-13 // vacation in vancouver and alaska
05-20-13 // back to normal
05-14-13 // aloneness
04-19-13 // 2 more weeks
04-14-13 // jason
03-29-13 // 10% happiness achieved
03-18-13 // slight
03-08-13 // my brother
03-04-13 // c 1, universe 1,000
02-15-13 // birthdays, chinese new years updates
02-08-13 // birthday anxiety
01-31-13 // nothing happened
01-30-13 // no job, divorce, etc (life)
01-11-13 // someone suicidal
01-11-13 // socially gone
01-09-13 // taking it easy
01-03-13 // 467
12-05-12 // so sick... so busy...
11-19-12 // getting drunk and stuff
11-14-12 // finally.. my iphone!
11-02-12 // 463
10-24-12 // sweet distance
10-23-12 // gays... more likely than you think
10-22-12 // new piano & violin lessons...
10-17-12 // c's depression.. and etc
10-09-12 // creepy disturbing dream
10-09-12 // piano, half empty glassed mom
09-25-12 // chris
09-19-12 // 455 - a big fight
09-07-12 // playing ro again.. eh
08-30-12 // too high
08-24-12 // drinking with Kings
08-23-12 // back to normal
08-22-12 // One of those weeks...
08-20-12 // Ugh.. one of those days
08-16-12 // happy
08-13-12 // white picket fence
08-09-12 // rant about my mom
07-16-12 // going great
07-10-12 // so far so good
07-06-12 // ris still here
07-05-12 // anime expo
06-28-12 // braces,1 month, 2nd visit
06-27-12 // lol is so irritating
06-26-12 // Happy to be out
06-25-12 // just letting it be
06-20-12 // sleeping problem still persists...
06-19-12 // when it's not even disappointment anymore
06-18-12 // progress
06-15-12 // not quite perfect... at all really
06-14-12 // actual depression this time...
06-13-12 // rude
06-12-12 // 431
05-29-12 // 430
05-21-12 // 429
05-17-12 // 428
05-17-12 // 427
05-07-12 // this must be a form of insanity
05-04-12 // 425
04-25-12 // 424
04-12-12 // 423
04-11-12 // "supposed to be"
04-10-12 // rejected
04-05-12 // hotto
03-31-12 // updates or whatever
02-28-12 // 418
02-21-12 // A good fight
02-13-12 // 416
02-10-12 // 415
02-09-12 // special day
11-23-11 // No Emotion
11-17-11 // 412
11-11-11 // 411
11-04-11 // fuck the pill
10-31-11 // 409
10-26-11 // 408
10-25-11 // 407
10-24-11 // 406
10-21-11 // 405
10-20-11 // I love the roses. I love them. LOVE THEM.
10-19-11 // 403
10-17-11 // 402
10-14-11 // 401
10-12-11 // 400
10-11-11 // 399
10-06-11 // 398
10-06-11 // 397
10-05-11 // 396
10-05-11 // 395
10-04-11 // 394
10-03-11 // 393
09-18-11 // 392
08-29-11 // 391
08-12-11 // WANTED&QUALIFIED
08-02-11 // 389
04-25-11 // gay
12-09-10 // 387
10-12-10 // 386
10-11-10 // 385
10-05-10 // 384
10-04-10 // 383
10-01-10 // 382
09-30-10 // 381
09-27-10 // 380
09-23-10 // 379
09-20-10 // follow me into the dark
09-20-10 // 377
09-17-10 // 376
09-17-10 // 375
09-16-10 // 373
09-09-10 // 372
09-03-10 // 371
09-02-10 // 370
09-01-10 // 369
08-31-10 // 368
08-30-10 // the first of probably not so many updates
08-28-10 // 366
07-29-10 // 365
07-22-10 // the never ending story of you know who
06-16-10 // 363
05-15-10 // bugs
05-08-10 // 361
04-23-10 // high schoolers with dreams
04-08-10 // trolling firefox
04-08-10 // 358
03-20-10 // tragedy
03-19-10 // friendship books
03-17-10 // 355
03-10-10 // 354
03-09-10 // 353
03-08-10 // uggghhh
03-03-10 // he's the one!
02-26-10 // the hiring process...
02-25-10 // 349
02-22-10 // over that.. into this..
02-19-10 // that damned facebook message
02-18-10 // attention attention
02-18-10 // 345
02-17-10 // 344
02-16-10 // 343
02-15-10 // Tuesday Sep 15 12:52am (12)
02-15-10 // Monday Sept 14 3:22pm (11)
02-15-10 // Sunday Sep 13 11:08pm (10)
02-15-10 // Tuesday Sep 08 12:48am (9)
02-15-10 // Friday Aug 28 5:37pm (8)
02-15-10 // Monday Aug 17, 09 1:28am (7)
02-11-10 // 336
02-09-10 // day after birthday entry
02-07-10 // windows 7
02-05-10 // 333
02-02-10 // 332
01-27-10 // 331
01-25-10 // 330
01-24-10 // Jani
01-22-10 // bathroom sex
01-15-10 // second choice
01-14-10 // 326
01-11-10 // 325
01-07-10 // 324
12-23-09 // 323
12-21-09 // 322
12-18-09 // depressed rantings
12-12-09 // i just wish to be able to wish
12-11-09 // 319
12-03-09 // 318
11-23-09 // attraction
11-19-09 // 316
11-16-09 // father daughter douchcery
11-05-09 // 314
11-03-09 // 313
10-27-09 // impossible-to-fill void that will never be filled
10-26-09 // 311
10-25-09 // 310
10-23-09 // 309
10-19-09 // 308
10-12-09 // 307
10-05-09 // 306
10-02-09 // 305
09-25-09 // weekends are a myth!
09-15-09 // yes i'm insane with my crazy mood swings
09-14-09 // it's OVER: O-V-E-R. AS IN FOREVER THIS TIME
09-13-09 // nothing ever gets better
09-11-09 // just tell me the truth. i'm not a little girl
09-01-09 // penis size...
08-30-09 // time to change
08-27-09 // indecision2009... still
08-20-09 // further down the spiral
08-17-09 // Sunday Aug 16, 3:14pm (6)
08-17-09 // 294
08-16-09 // Wednesday Aug 12, 3:57am (5)
08-16-09 // Tuesday Aug 11, 10:27pm (4)
08-16-09 // Tuesday Aug 4, 10:29 pm (3)
08-16-09 // Tuesday Aug 4, 5:49am (2)
08-16-09 // Monday Aug 3, 1:38:07 (1)
08-11-09 // 288
08-05-09 // 287
08-03-09 // totally unfair ... to&for everyone and everything
08-02-09 // which is the mistake?
07-29-09 // job and the money
07-28-09 // 283
07-22-09 // 282
07-17-09 // 281
07-12-09 // 280
07-05-09 // 279
07-03-09 // 278
06-11-09 // it's the end of the world as i know it
05-26-09 // time to move on?
05-18-09 // why was morning invented just so i could wake up
05-13-09 // 274
05-09-09 // dream. dream..DREAM
05-06-09 // 272
04-27-09 // one life. one love. ... one person to belong to
04-07-09 // 270
04-01-09 // too realistic
03-28-09 // sex with the scratch marks and the pain and oh yea the great joy too
03-26-09 // 267
03-20-09 // 266
03-17-09 // lost the job
03-16-09 // 264
03-14-09 // 263
03-13-09 // 262
03-12-09 // 261 part 3; this is shorter
03-12-09 // 260 (big update part 2)
03-12-09 // 259 (big update part 1)
02-18-09 // 258
02-11-09 // my hidden silent goodbye (part3)
02-09-09 // the end of jeff; the beginning of life
02-06-09 // i feel like there's no one else out there for me..
02-02-09 // c, jeff, kevin, fuck them all.
01-30-09 // it's like he has totally moved on now. (part2)
01-28-09 // i must be stupid and out of my mind. wtf am i doing? (part1)
01-28-09 // 251
01-26-09 // indecision2009
01-25-09 // a semi-drunken dream about eric
01-21-09 // just visiting... everywhere
01-19-09 // "save it for later"
01-18-09 // sacrifices
01-16-09 // fuck you pat
01-12-09 // 244
01-09-09 // exboyfriend number 4, and that's all he is to me
01-08-09 // "i know what you're thinking" part 2
01-07-09 // "i know what you're thinking"
01-07-09 // confused and all over the fucking place. yay~
01-06-09 // this is not a new years resolution, but just fucking hard goals i must attain
01-06-09 // eine kleine nachtmusik
01-03-09 // 237