training a new girl
@ 11:25 a.m.
c's been gone for GDC in san francisco since saturday. i missed him terribly on sunday and i was so depressed, but now with work distracting me, it hasn't been as big of a deal. it's just kind of weird going to sleep at night by myself. i guess we don't necessarily spend that much time together on the weekdays so it's easier to cope during the week (him being gone now i mean). i've not done very much either... i've been smoking pot every day this week though and i don't think i will stop til he's back. i don't think it's addiction or anything like that. just that it's so much easier to enjoy things that way. i guess i don't like being sober. but then it's not like i'm willing to get drunk for it. i just like the way weed makes me feel i guess.
they hired a new girl at work out of the blue on tuesday, i couldn't believe it, very weird that it just suddenly happened like that, but i suppose i shouldn't be too surprised. i knew my manager was looking, it just seemed liked nothing was going to happen i guess. maybe all is not lost. the new girl is very good so far. i know because they asked me to train her. it was a surprise when they told me the day she was hired. my manager thought the supervisor had told me and the supervisor thought the manager had told me... so that's why i wasn't informed. she's still technically supposed to be trained by the supervisor, but she's just so swamped. they were saying that maybe next week, the new girl will switch over to be trained by the supervisor, but then she said it was looking like she'd be just as busy so i may have to continue to train her. it's a nice and a bad thing. the nice things are that it means the manager really trusts me... although it's something i already knew anyway. and i have a chance to shine i guess if i train her well. and i probably will, especially since she seems to be pretty good. she's been easy to train so far.
the bad things are that, i don't really have the chance to do whatever i want like i normally do. cause when i get bored or whatever i can go out and take a break, write in diaryland or whatever the fuck else i feel like doing, but if i'm training someone i can't do that. she's by my side about 80-90% of the time. i've only had some time to myself (including now) because i assign her work to try out on her own. and to further add to this point, if i am bored because i have no work... well, she'll know that i'm not doing anything too and i'm not sure how to solve that kind of problem. I'll have to think up things ... work! to do! i've also not always been able to leave on time... training means that i have to spend more time explaining stuff so that's why the past few days i wasn't able to leave on time... but now today it seems like i have no work... i hate the unbalanceness of it sometimes but that's how it ends up being at this job sometimes...