so sick... so busy...
@ 11:20 p.m.
the last time i wrote was the 19th and wow that was awhile ago. it felt like a long time ago too. i've been meaning to write since that week, but that week was thanksgiving so i didn't end up having the time at work. and then last week at work was busy as hell, and on top of that i had a cold, so i was just not up for anything. when i got home, it was mostly resting and etc. it was like the worst cold i've gotten in a long long time, and i'm so glad it's over... fuck. but i'm getting off topic.
i think the main reason i was so excited to write was that we did go for night #2 with the sex thing on that monday, and we did it again wednesday night. i think there might've been one other occasion too. i forget if i wanted to say anything about it in particular, but i guess more likely it was just that i was so happy that he was so interested in me after it seemed like we hadn't done it in a long time (well that 2-week or maybe longer period sucked!) but since that week, i haven't been having any sex because my cold has been just killing me. i think i mentioned that i might be coming down with a cold but i couldn't be sure. this cold just started so weird. i think it started with these awful headaches, then i had a weird cold sore thing underneath my tongue, and then i felt very sore and tired, fatigue that you would feel from a flu probably. i think on that wednesday it started to get noticably worse... i definitely had my cold by thanksgiving, though it wasn't that bad. the cold didn't go away through the weekend. by the following monday, i had a full on cold. pretty awful the entire week, and later on in the week, it was cough cough cough every minute. it was pretty fucking bad... i'd say it was torturous. i called in sick on friday and slept in til 4pm. the coughing stopped, and i had a reprieve for the rest of the day and saturday... then sunday cough cough cough again, and monday it was just awful. it reminded me of when i was overweight a few years ago and slipped one of the discs in my spine, and i just couldn't stand up on my own. i had to lean on something or someone, and my back hurt so much whenever i tried to get up or go to sleep or whatever. i would break out in sweat just to try sitting up. it was awful and i wanted to die. my coughing was reminding me a bit of that, but i guess not nearly as bad as that, but god it was awful. i haven't had a cold so bad in years. finally the coughing went away yesterday, and i'm finally on the way towards my recovery. my nose is more or less clear, my voice should return soon, and i only cough a few handful of times a day. THANK FUCKING GOD. besides the fact that it's finally over, i know that if i had continued the cold, i couldn't even stay home to rest from work because i'm so fucking busy as shit, it's not even funny. i had to stay 2 hrs overtime yesterday and i'll probably have to stay another 2 more tomorrow and i'm totally barely hanging on. i'm not finishing my day's work, i have to move things over to the next day. it's ridiculous how busy i am.
so that means that i haven't been able to do any of the things i normal do at work when i have leisure time (btw, i don't even take my breaks and i sometimes work through lunch, i know it's not legal, but they don't know about it and i'd rather get the work done) such as writing in diaryland, working on my swaps for my slam swapping stuff (a hobby), checking my email, doing the finances (i still have yet to close nov's ending month... not sure how my money is this month...) which i should have finished 5 days ago. i was going to do that today, but ended up spending all my free time (since 9pm) working on the slam swapping stuff, so it will have to wait til tomorrow.
i've been so busy i haven't even had a chance to catch up on the stuff around the house, which is what i spent some of the time doing. i also had a dentist appointment today. my braces are going pretty well. there's one more thing that needs to be done, then it's more or less smooth sailing. i'm pretty happy with the way that's going. but yea, spent my time playing violin, and i decided to play piano cause i haven't since i got my cold. i just haven't had energy. then i made dinner, of course no one does the dishes here (or i guess some people do, but there always seems to be a stack of dishes in the sink...), and then i cleaned the counter because it was just a fucking mess. still have so much to tackle...
all the while, all i really want to do is go relax and read. i haven't really had a chance to relax either. i went to sleep at 2am yesterday (i'll explain shortly) and now it's gonna be 12am soon. i was so tired this morning, and i have a feeling i'm going to be tired tomorrow too. there's still so much to do, and i've yet to even relax, but i should just go to bed, cause i hate feeling sleepy in the morning.
i'm so glad that this semester is almost over for c. he's been doing awful in my opinion. he leaves his work to do at the last minute. the problem is two of the classes is anthropology, which is a general ed class... which he sucks at. i think c has withdrawn from at least 2 if not more general ed classes while he's been at usc. anyway, this is his last year, so he doesn't really have the option to withdrawal anymore, not unless he takes another year at usc... so he wasn't really doing the work, and he freaked out during mid terms, but he ended up passing with c's on both of them. and now this weekend, there was a paper due for one of the classes. and he was supposed to look for 2 books from a list to write a compare and contrast paper on. and he hadn't even really looked for the books until this weekend. what an awful mistake since these books aren't really famous or well known and weren't as easy to find online as c had assumed. he was throwing one of oh-god-i-want-to-die tantrums... well, it wasn't too bad this time. maybe he was looking to me to solve the problem, cause i always step in to do it. in the end, we found an e-book of one of the books online through his usc school online library thing. and we managed to find a copy of another e-book, but we had to buy this one for $40, but it was better than the $100 or so it would've cost at the bookstore, so goddamn we fucking lucked out. well of course c wasn't going to write his own essay cause he's terrible at that. on sunday, i tried my best and i wrote out one and half pages out of the 5. i had the brilliant idea that maybe marcos would be willing to do it, so i messaged him, and marcos came over monday night to write the essay for him. oh yeah, the essay was due on tuesday. good job c, i know. luckily marcos was able to finish it. he stayed over and slept all day tuesday. when i got home, we went out to eat dinner, and then when we came back, he stayed over to play some games and such... next thing you know it's 2am... so that's how that happened. but anyway, the semester is almost over now, and it looks like c has survived it... he has one more to go next semester and it will then be all over. i'm kinda crossing my fingers that it all goes well.
well, i guess that's about all that's been going on with me... yeah, all hah. hmm and the updates to the last entry are: no i didn't work black friday. and i still haven't checked facebook to see if maybe jeff has written to me. at first i was kind of just ignoring it and not really wanting to know, but then things got too busy. i guess if he lives a life that i've been living the past week or so, i can see why he might not be able to spare me 5 mins to write an answer... especially since it's jeff and he would want to work out a proper reply... proper reply indeed...
i guess that's what's been going on with me. i really hope work comes to a calm soon, but i know it won't, at least not until the end of the next week, when the co-worker returns from vacation. everyone's super busy at work. i guess i'll end here, it's almost 12am and i want to get ready for bed. maybe next time i come on diaryland, i'll actually have time to read other people's diaries.