"supposed to be"
@ 5:55 p.m.
hmm. by chance, i heard on the radio that ryan gosling saved some girl, so i looked it up to see what it was about. everyone seems to be swooning over him, but i don't see what the big deal is. he did something that everyone of us should've (would've- i hope) done, but yet he gets praised for it because he's a good looking actor. well, anyway i'm not hating on ryan gosling, i'm hating on these news reporters that make a bigger deal out of this than it needs to be... but meh, i didn't start writing about this to rant about news reporters.
anyway, while i was looking it up, there were some comments to this story and one of them in particular was a video that someone had put up, and it was a clip from the 2005 mtv awards where ryan gosling and rachel mcadams won best kiss for their movie the notebook. i looked at that clip in awe, and i couldn't seem to believe that there could be two people more perfect together...
but the reality of it is, it's 2012, rachel mcadams has married or at least is partners with someone else (wikipedia confuses me) and ryan has moved on as well. and it's not like it's news that i didn't already know for a long time now, but somehow revisiting it still seems as painful as the first time i learned about it. i suppose i shouldn't get too caught up in the lives of celebrity, but it's always been hard for me to accept when two people who should be together aren't.
like another example, in the fearless series by francine pascal, gaia was supposed to be with fucking sam, and then all this shit happens and she ends up being with ed instead. or even this other soap opera i used to watch (i know right-like i'll get the happy ending i want in a soap opera). but the point is that everything in real life tells me that nothing lasts forever, and that people who supposedly i always thought were meant to be together, don't always end up that way in real life.
and today i realized that i think that's kind of what jeff and i have been all along. it's so sad that things don't work out even though there's this notion or feeling that it's the right thing. i guess the sad truth of it all is that life doesn't work out like that. and while i can logically not be upset anymore by the whole jeff thing, i'm still very upset over all these other couples that were supposed to be together. i find it funny that i should care to see them together more than i bet the people themselves do.
at least i'll have the notebook.
too bad nothing seems real...