trolling firefox
@ 4:22 p.m.
wow, so after posting that last entry, i somehow got firefox to start working again and it kept what i had typed up, although a lot of it is relaly similiar to what i wrote in the previous entry, i thought i'd post it anyway since it's available.
jesus firefox, you really are a huge troll you know that?
wow i haven't written in a long time. no excuse really, only that there wasn't anything particularly interesting to update on. i mean, everything is pretty mcuh the same. i've been on here, i just haven't had time to write. so yea, it's been crazy busy here pretty much all the time.
so for the past maybe 2ish+ weeks i haven't been dieting, though i was going to the gym, but now i'm starting again. i really need to update the weight check now. but anyway, i'm gonna work hard again and lose more weight. i'm down another 2 lbs this week.
the job hunt with c is still the same. at this point, i really don't know what i could do to help me find a job, even though i haven't tried nearly as hard to find any jobs online, i have tried somewhat, and it's even given me a headache. i'm just hoping that he sticks with it and get something soon, because i don't have time to help him search anymore.
but you know i realized something awhile ago. i can't really rely on c to be the strong one in the relationship and that really scuks. like whenver he feels like somethings gonna go wrong, or whatnot, i can tell him it'll be okay. and i realize now a lot of the future rests in him. like for example, i sometimes wonder... worry and generally don't really stop thinking about the fact that c has applied to universities this year, and well what if he doesn't get into anything?! then fuck what then? but i have to be the strong one and reassure him that he'll get in, when sometimes i'm also unsure what will happen and need reassurance from him that he'll get in. but i can't bring that up to him because he's counting on me to be the strong one. i can't imagine what he'd say to me if he ever heard me asking "what if you don't get in?" it made me realize that i wish i could talk to him about stuff that he could easily make me feel better about. but i guess the truth is both of us are unsure about when we find out if he gets accepted or not.
so a couple weekends ago, c was driving and got pulled over by a cop. it turns out that one of his headlights were out and basically he only got a fix-it ticket. if there's something you know about c, is that i don't think i've never considered him to be a very lucky person in general. i mean, luck is something that my parents have ingrained in me. they're chinese and believe really heavily in that horoscope