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wow.. so i finally make an appearance. i know right- what happened to that write everyday crap, i don't even think that lasted a week. but luckily, i have some time here at work. can you believe it?! almost an hour of free time and i really have finished all my work, not just finished all my immediate work. which is even crazier because the new girl left. she came in yesterday morning and said that she quit and just left. apparntly she found another job. don't really blame her for leaving because she totally didn't fit in (how i felt anyway), and she was sloooow. i know she was only here a week, a week and a half? but i can't help it, the whole time i thougth she was slow, and i totally felt like everyone was repeating the same things to her over and over again. and i get that she's new and would forget things, but i can't help it-- SHE WAS SLOW! so anyway, i'm kind of happy about this because for one thing, i didn't really like her. hopefully we find a better replacement. and secondly, she served her purpose. i liked that she was so slow because it only made myself look better because i was such a quick learner. and most of all i'm happy about the fact that this might mean i may have a chance to earn more money. if we get busy again, there's no way i'm going to stay over the time i'm supposed to be staying, and that will probably mean eventually that we would be so far behind that he'd force me to stay behind to work, but i'd only do it if i got paid extra. now, if this never happens, it doesn't really hurt me any, but if it does it only helps me earn some extra cash, which i approve. in any case, her leaving is probably a blessing, but we'll see how it plays out. oh yea, did i also mention, the part time worker is gone. i forget if i ever mentioned her, i think i must've, but yea, her last day here was on friday. and so we're only left here with me, yoy, the manager, and the boss. anyway, enough about work.
so been hanging out with marcos a little bit, and i feel much better about the whole moving out thing with him because i asked him about it yesterday, and it sounds like he is okay with it. at least he definitely will be more okay with it given some time. i'm happy and a little sad at the same time. i wonder what my mom will say about me moving out. but i don't want to tell her yet in case it doesn't go through. my mom is not the type of person you tell something big to without knowing it's going to happen for sure. otherwise she doesn't stop asking, doesn't stop pushing and wants to know what's going on every minute, and giving her an answer like "i don't know" just won't do with her. so i have to wait until it's more of a for sure thing. the only thing we're really waiting on now is for c to find a job... which as it turns out might be in his favor. apparantly, somebody FINALLY emailed him back for a craigslist listing. it's basically to work as a flash developer. it sounds promising. so far they've emailed a couple times and he even called c on monday. he's supposed to email him sometime this week. i'm still trying not to get too excited about it though, because it's not a for sure thing. even if he did get hired, it wouldn't start until april... which is just as well because i decided that i need to finish paying my student loans before i move out (i have like $1700 left), and marcos needs to pay off about $1000 for some crap too. so this will give us time to prepare to move out if that's what we're going to do, but both me and marcos definitely decided that we are no way moving in until c gets a job.
but c and i have gone apartment hunting a little. at least c definitely has. i saw a couple places. one was really AWESOME and pretty much perfect, but i think it'll probably be rented out by the time we are ready to move in somewhere. i'm not too down about this because i noticed the are we are trying to move into is FULL of "for rent" signs. you can't pass a block without seeing like 2 or 3 signs. so we definitely think we have a lot to choose from. also me and marcos really want to raise a cat. so we need to find a place that is willing to let us raise one. me and marcos are totally excited about this. c, not as much cause he says he doesn't want to clean after it. but we're having a hard time coming up with a good name for it that we all would like.
hmm weight loss hasn't been going as well as it used to be. i've only lost about 5 lbs this past month. that's actually really awful considering i lost about 10 lbs or more the first month. it seems like it's just getting harder and harder to lose weight. but i've been cheating my diet though. on saturdays i've been eating out at ihop and stuff with c. i guess it can't be helped. i mean when i think about it, i realize at least i'm still losing weight and i'm actually able to pig out a little bit, but then when i look at how little i've been losing, it jsut feels so disappointing and then i think, maybe i should cut this weekend pig out session and then i'd actually lose some weight, but man, its hard. at least i'm still losing. at least there's that. not sure what else to say so guess i'll end here..
edit: oh yea, i read a book by karen robards yesterday called "bait", and more and more, when i read her new stuff, i noticed how much her writing has changed. she really doesn't have much romance as she used to when i read her old books, and she mainly focus on crime/drama/suspense stuff now. i mean, she does all that really well, and it's great, but it's hard not to notice that she's lacking in the romance department. this one was okay though. i remember i read her book "vanished" some months back, i REALLY didn't care for that book. i'm iffy about whether i want to continue reading her books. most of it seems hit or miss. and another thing that bothers me about her romance aspect is that it's realistic. i know that sounds insane, but it's true. it's too realistic. the romance develops really slow, and so does the attraction, and so much so that i was really surprised that the main guy in the novel was falling so hard for the main girl, especially since he said a few times that he only did flings. honestly, what happened to the love at first sight stuff? and having a hard time keeping away from each other (stuff i feel is pretty easy to fight off in real life)? and what about the total lust that the characters feel after a simple small kiss. i didn't feel any of that from her in this book. it felt so real. i honestly don't think love at first sight really happens, and i don't think it's that hard to control yourself when you think you shouldn't be with someone, and i definitely don't think one little kiss will drive someone horny enough to bed them right there and then with a force that's unstoppable. but none of that shit matters in romance novels because that's what's supposed to happen in them. if we can't go off into fantasy land and imagine that really happening in that fantasy world, then what the hell do we have? and everything karen robards wrote was nothign like that. HENCE-- TOO REALISTIC. hmm not sure if i will be reading more of her books. but the suspense is pretty damn good. if it wasn't for that i'd stop reading her awhile ago...