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@ 4:49 p.m.
wow... so starting to write at work again.. only 10 minutes left in the day though. well let's see. so this moving out thing is looking promising, but i'm trying not to get my hopes up because things never seem to change around here. c sounds really dead set on it, but who knows what kind of action's he'll take. like just because he really wants to move out, i don't know how desperate enough he is to find a job. but he told me today that both his sister and dad will help him move out. i mean, at this point, everyone in that family thinks that she's crazy, and really she is. i'll tell you the story of what happened next time.. well, if i ever feel like it i guess. anyway, here's to being semi hopeful, but not too much. i don't nkow how marcos is taking to moving out with us. i don't think he likes the idea because he has just gotten situated, and i think he enjoys living at home with his family. i mean, marcos's family is the antithesis of c's. so in any case, i think marcos isn't against the idea of moving out with us, but he's just reluctant. honestly, i think c should get a job, see if he gets into usc first. and meanwhile move out and live at marcos's. i thought that was what he was planning on doing the last time his mom blew up in his face? but i don't know what happened to that idea, because he's not doing it now anymore... i think it would be smarter this way. if he got a job and was able to save up some money, find some stability. i know he gets his fafsa money soon and whatnot, but he needs stable income if we're talking about moving out. the other problem with moving out is that we all can't seem to decide where exactly we want to move out to. i don't want to be too far from work, he doesn't want to be too far from usc, and i'm guessing marcos doesn't want to move too far away from his work or from his home/family. the appropriate areas that i'm willing to settle for are all kind of crappy areas, like compton, and i mean literally compton is one of our choices. although the idea of paying only $300 or $400 a month for rent apeals to me, the idea of getting shot does not. and i dont want to move in their to find out taht the hype is true. and i would really just like to live in a fairly nice area. it doesn't have to be fancy, but just nice... livable. i wonder what my mom would think about me moving out. god, she seems to have an opinion about evertyhing these days. and she keeps wondering when i'll get married, settle down and have kids. and asks me things like when is c gonna propose to me. and just yesterday she asked me if i even want to get marrried, and then said that if i don't marry soon i may not have a chance to because studies shows that if you've been with someone over 3 years, you're comfortable enough that you wouldn't want to bother getting married. god, like telling me any of this helps or changes anything... it doesn't! sometimes, i'm so sick and tired of all this shit.