he's the one!
@ 8:53 p.m.
hmm haven't written in awhile, and honestly don't feel much like writing, just want to read actually... but thought i'd make this post because i dont know when i'll have the time to write...
a couple days ago, the thought came into my head that if i had the choice to be with anyone... would i still choose jeff? or anyone else? and my honest to god true thought was that i wouldn't choose anyone else but c. i have really come to love him. ok, so he still annoys me sometimes when he's mean to me, say jerk-ish things just to be a jerk, and never lets me win any conversations, and i guess we do sort of tend to argue, but honestly, i am so damn comfortable with him. and i like knowing what to expect. and i think most of all that i'm so happy that i know what he has for me must be what they call unconditional love that i don't know why on earth i would trade it for anything. i guess it's sort of weird, but i'm really starting to like him, and i'm definitely happy with him even despite all our stupid fights. but i mean, he's a GUY for fuck's sake. aren't they all like that? more and more i think that c's the one, and i'm more sure about him every day, and i get really happy and excited, thinking about our future together.. with kids and everything... and it's GREAT! funny thing is, c is worried about us. he thinks we fight too much and that i don't really like him. hah! i wish i could reassure him better, but i don't think i could tell him that for the past few months, i'd been contemplating being with someone else etc.. in any case though, i think things are looking up for us. i even think that i miss him when we're apart way more than i used to. i used to like having my alone time, and well, just generally being left alone for the evening when i get home.. i mean, when i'm with c on the weekends, i end up having to do stuff. and its not that that stuff bothered me terribly before, but just that i preferred being left alone to do whatever i wanted. but now i'd rahter have him around. i'd much more prefer his company over my alone time.
ok, i guess i might as well talk a little bit about what's going on lately. monday, i left work sharp, 5pm. had my lunch semi late, but i still had it. and i've been having it everyday. i left at 4 as usual yesterday, but today i left a little late. 5:30, which i didn't really mind, but i guess i should stop. i'll probably leave on time the rest of this week. but in other interesting news.. the boss asked to speak with me briefly... he thanked me for my hard work, said that the people i dealt with overseas are satisfied with my work as well... basically, he said overall that he appreciates me working hard and thinks that i'm doing a good job.. and he seemed to imply sort of that he was going to either be giving me a raise or giving me overtime pay, but nothing was explicitly said. so i'm kind of confused, and i have no idea what to expect. i'm kind of hoping he's giving me that overtime pay because i can't imagine that he'd give me another raise since he just gave me one in january.. but at the same time i dont want to get my hopes up too much, cause i don't want to be disappointed.
in other news, they hired someone at work. but i have to admit, lately the work has been dwindling down. the fact that i am actually able to finish my work while being able to take my hour lunch and leave on time (pretty much) really goes to show that the work just isn't as heavy as last week or the few weeks before that. but anyway, they hired someone new, and it was her first day today. and no, i didn't train her, yoy is, just like she trained me. i think i'm a little bit happy that i don't have to train her. cause i guess when i think about it, after all, it really is none of my business to deal with. anyway, so far she seems slow.. but perhaps i may be judging too harshly. it is her first day after all, and i don't think that i had done anything really my first day. in fact, i'm almost sure that whatever little work i did on my first day i could do within 10 or 20 minutes now. it's almost a bit ridiculous. anyway we'll see how good she is.
ok, gonna go read now..
EDIT: oh yea, wanna knows something semi funny that happened this weekend? ok, so awhile ago marcos got caught smoking weed on campus. that's a whole nother story i could get into but i doubt i ever will remember to talk about it again, or really have the patience to explain all of it. but long story short, he was with 2 of his friends, who were dumb enough to risk smoking in public and of course at school, good job. he didn't want to at first, but then towards the end, he gave in at the pressure of his friends, and of course unlucky as he was, two cops showed up who smelled it, and then right when they go there, it was marcos with the pot in his hand so only he got in trouble. there's a whole lot more i could talk about like what one of his friend's said, but yea. anyway, so when he went to do community service for his crime, he told what happened to the other people there and they laughed at him and told him that he's stupid because he should get some kind of medial marijuana license/card. basically paperwork that states you can possess and smoke pot at your leisure and there's nothing the cops can do about it. apparantly, it's damn easy to get. i couldn't believe it! so c looked this shit up, and on saturday, we wnet to a clinic together, where they evaluated him, and he got one of those licenses. but his having it is actually legit. he has terrible back pain, and he had to go to physical therapy for it awhile back, but then stopped because he couldn't afford the treatment payment. and then he also has constant headaches. he used to get them daily in high school, and went to the doctors. they did an mri, couldn't find anything, and the doctor recommended he get BOTOX! wtf!? obviously that was declined, and his headaches are still quite frequent. so getting the marijuana card thing was actually legit for him so maybe that's why it was so easy? i obvoiusly wouldn't ever try to get anything like that, but damn, i suppose if anyone really wanted it, it'd be easy to lie and get what you want... so long as you don't get caught lying. anyway, afterwards we went out and while i stayed in the waiting area, c actually went in and bought pot legally. it was just so... surreal really... and as to all of this, my one comment is this: medical marijuana is way better than the stuff off the streets. there's actually quality in it, and you don't cough up a storm after a hit.