the hiring process...
@ 8:26 p.m.
so... i don't think they're going to give me any over time or raise because the boss interviewed 3 people today, meaning all my crying and complaining about staying so long managed to do was have them move along the new hire process. which i guess i am little disappointed that i won't be getting any more money (and also i feel like i got totally taken advantage of), but i am also relieved that they're hiring. the first person was a girl, the last 2 guys. i didn't really care for the first one, the girl, but i guess she was okay. i really liked the second guy, by appearance i mean anyway. and the third guy i liked the least out of them... he was kind of big, and well, i mean judging by the way he looked, i can't help but think he'll be slow, won't take directions well, and basically.. i just can't imagine him to be the type to accept being at the bottom of the company. but i guess everyone has to start somewhere, but still. this is just the feeling i get from him. but then again, look at fucking chingy. he seemed like a good worker, but more and more i find out that he was such a huge slacker. and he really didn't take his work very seriously at all..
but looking at them all, i was reminded me of my interview. i had thought it was short, but well, i was immediately hired. i had the interview on friday, and then monday i started work right away. i'm sure part of it was because i must've made a good impression, a good enough impression anyway because i was hired right away. but well, i'm sure part of the reason for that was because he was so short staff. i mean, currently we have 3 full time people working, and one part time... and well, it's been crazy at our office. i can't stand the stress and it's driving me insane... as i've stated previously. i can't imagine how much more insanely busy it must've been with only 3 full time people working there. so i'm sure he was desperate for another worker, and that's why they hired right away. the second thing that i keep thinking about now is... i wonder if he hired me based on my appearance. today, all 3 people dressed up so nicely. the 2 guys were suits like they were going to the prom, and even the girl dressed in these nice slacks. it was completely professional that i was in awe, and couldn't help but think they were overdressed. and then i realized, well it IS an interview, and well, the economy sucks these days so they really have to dress to impress. but now that i think about it, when i went into the interview, i was dressed pretty damn casual compared to these guys. i wasn't wearing jeans, but still... it was casual. and i wonder if maybe that's why he hired me. i mean, obviously people don't hire other people that are out of their league, because if they do end up saying yes, they won't last. they won't be happy with the circumstances. and i wonder if that's part of the reason today that our boss didn't hire any of them on the spot. but i suppose since he has had interviews lined up he couldn't very well offer it to the first person... and maybe he didn't like that last guy? (i didn't...) or maybe he has more people to interview? i really don't know. but it's been a little upsetting to me now that i kind of have to wonder if it was because i was underdressed that he hired me. as if he knew he could afford to keep me. am i worth that little? how lucky he was to be stuck with someone with a conscience, and someone who cares about their job, and someone who works hard. i bet even he couldn't have imagined that someone who dressed like that for an interview would end up impressing him as i did. even the manager said that i was the fastest learner at this job he has ever seen.
it makes me more than a little damn sad that i have so much more potential but i always manage to throw it out the window. i wonder if i dressed better i would've gotten more pay. but i also have to wonder if i dressed so professionally if he still would've hired me...
a part of me is actually kind of hoping he doesn't hire anyone too soon. i want to start leaving at 5pm again, and leaving the work to be done to pile up so much so that they NEED me to stay behind and that they'll pay me overtime. who knows if it'll happen... i hope they hire that second guy.
oh yea, a part of me is thinking that i may end up having to teach/instruct this new person we hire. of course, i could be completely crazy and basing this out of nothing other than the fact that i would LIKE to teach the new person. well i mean, i have ALWAYS loved to teach, that has never changed. but i know when i first joined this job, it wasn't chingy that taught me anything, it was yoy, and really i'm kind of "chingy" now and i don't see why yoy would teach me to begin with if chingy could've done it then. so i suppose yoy will teach the new person, but i can't help but think that yoy trusts me way more than she does chingy, and thinks that i do a good enough job that i could teach the new person. i dunno. i guess i'm just crazy. we'll see.