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i think that i should really make an effort to work on c's website. but you know how it is between me and effort. i haven't been distracted by ro this week, which is nice, but problem is that i then tend to get distracted by other things such as law and order (or some other thing to watch on netflix)... or pretty much some other thing to watch. i generally don't have that much free time anyway, so i guess i dont' really waste that much time doing nothing... but really i should start working on the website. i think c has been pretty damn patient about it. it's just it's something i don't really feel like doing and i get so lazy about it. i think it's kind of like that with some of the things at work too, but i guess that's different because it's not really THAT time consuming. bleeeh. maybe i will actually do it... maybe.
i did like one page of my story since i last wrote in here. haha.
in other also random news, today a coworker bought everyone coffee from the coffee bean. i have never been there so i have no clue what size he got us (i thuoght it was the 16 oz/medium, but i'm not sure), but because of that i felt so guilty about it that i forced myself not to eat lunch. that thing is somehwere between 100-300 calories. which doesn't seem like much, but i probably eat around 300 calories a meal. i hate being the whole picky counting calories type of eater, but i am really serious about losing weight this time. and i'm pretty excited because when i weight myself at home last night i was a little over 169 lbs but not quite at 170. but the home scale is a bit off most of the time, so i have to wait for when i get off work and check it at the gym, that one is a lot more accurate. i'm really hopeful, but trying not to be, if it turns out that i weight 173 or 172, i'd be sad. realistically i'm thinking probably 171.
god i'm so hungry!!! but you know, i've kind of gotten used to the feeling of being hungry, it doesn't even bother me anymore. i remember the first night that i ate fruit and yogurt for dinner and by 9 pm i was starving so bad and i wanted to die, i was just so lucky that i was really sleepy so i was able to fall asleep at least. now, when i get hungry, it usually doesn't last, and even if i am hungry, it's just kind of this empty feeling, but it's not really that bothersome. i hate talking about dieting and losing weight, because i hate the way people sound when talking about it (reminds me of 100 lb women trying to lose 15 lbs), but i guess i can't help it. i'm so hopeful, i just hope i end up really disappointed tonight. if i'm at 170 lbs tonight, i still need to lose 13 lbs by my birthday (about a month from now) to get that watch...
on a totally different note... since my old car doesn't support mp3 cds, i want to buy an ipod. (i just want to point out that the best thing i've ever bought for myself was probably my original first generation standard ipod that came out back in the day before all this ipod mini and nano shit came out, and it was awesome). unfortunately, the only thing they have selling is the ipod nano, or the original ipod but it's fucking huge and way more expensive with way more storage room, or i could go for the itouch. i'm really not sure what to go for here. my mom told me that if i lose all my weight (down to 120lbs), she'd buy me an iphone, so if that were to happen then i'd feel like my itouch would be sort of a waste, but if i buy an ipod nano, i really don't know which one to go for either, because it's 8 gb, it's $149, or for just a bit more i can get 16 gb for $179. so i probably might as well get that. but the thing is the itouch is only $199 for 8gb, so then i might as well just jump to that right? i like the idea of having the itouch too because those applications are FUN! but then i wonder if that's enough gb for an itouch and i wonder if i should get 16 gb for $299.
any advice on which one to get? my main reason for getting it is really just to listen to music in the car.. and maybe at the gym. so maybe i should just buy the nano? (but which one??) i guess i probably don't need an itouch distracting me... @____@ i dunno!!