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@ 10:08 p.m.
eh. well i haven't written in awhile and even though i desperately want to go home (it's 10pm dammit), here i am writing.
so one of my coworker is gone for vacation for 2 weeks, so i've been taking care of probably at least half his work since yesterday. because of this, i'm left with nearly no lunch time, and before i used to be able to sneak in some rest time of visting other websites including writing on diaryland sometimes, but now ha! forget it, i don't really even have time to breathe. i think it kind of sucks in the way that i know i am doing so much work and i feel like i'm doing really well for the company, but it's not like i'm getting paid a lot for it. honestly, i really love my job, i just wish the pay wasn't so shitty. i know that's kind of weird, processing paperwork, what's so fun about that? but i really do like it, there's nothing else to say besides that. but i noticed taht the company itself really doesn't make that much money. i think at one point i was thinking, i wonder how they manage to pay for their employees and still manage to stay out of the red? maybe they have some secret cash stacked somewhere?
so at school, i forget if i mentioned but i'm taking 2 classes. japanese and mysql class. i was taking c, but i hated that it was on sat at 1pm. i had too much on my plate so i just got rid of it. anyway, i'm barely hanging by in my mysql class, i'm kind of learning, forced to by homework, but barely understanding it. mysql doesn't seem that hard, but when i begin writing it, all kinds of errors seem to pop up? as for japanese, i'm doing superb in that class. i got a 98% on the midterm (which i was disappointed with actually, should've been 100%), which was the top score in the class. still though, i wish i could say more things, and i wish i could learn things just by hearing it once, like that girl on Heros that appeared for like 1 or 2 episodes. I don't even remember her name or what season she appeared in, just that she was a waitress.
saturday was halloween, so me and c went to see the soto's. wow i hadn't seen them in a long time. they had a halloween maze set up filled with scares and even though i didn't want to, i was forced by c and a few other people (mostly c). i guess it wasn't that scary in the end. i had a fun time at the end chatting, especially with mark. rick was his usual stick-around-for-20mins-and-then-disappears-for-hours self. he has a new girlfriend, which i approve. he had an on and off thing with his last one and a lot of people that we knew talked bad about the fact that she sometimes acted like a bitch. i wouldn't know but i'm glad it's over because on and off things never work out. we're going again next week because it's rick's birthday, (he's 25 wow; i've known him for 5 years) so that should be fun. maybe we'll all get high or drunk, or both. i think i still mostly feel awkward around the soto's. like i'm a little different and that i don't really belong. i probably feel most comfortable with mark, even though i've known rick the longest.
so last wednesday was me and c's 3 year anniversary. sadly i completely forgot about it. i remembered a few days prior, but completely forgot until c mentioned it saturday, saying that he was sorry for forgetting. i'm not sure how i feel abuot the whole ordeal. i remember when we first got together i was thinking that i would remember every month. and then eventually i started forgetting. last year i think i remembered a day after, or maybe on the day off but barely remembering. i think i was upset that he forgot, but man, look at me now. i used to think i would care so much, but that's totally not the case anymore. i feel a little depressed about it, maybe i should put more of an effort into remembering.
there was something i actually REALLY did want to write about that happened. something interesting to do with c. i wanted to write about it yesterday or maybe on sunday, but now i really can't remember. i've been trying to remember since the beginning of this entry, but it hasn't happened. and now it's 10:25 and i no longer feel like babbling on about something else to stall as i try to remember what it is. rather i'll write again when i remember.... IF i remember. i better remember. damnit.
on a totally different note: nothing interesting going on ro this week, maybe i should take that as a sign and stay off it and actually get some of the things i want to get done, done.