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@ 4:05 p.m.
i spent a lot of time today looking at old entries from my old diary. the last few entries that i made on it were pretty sporadic, so it was easy to read the last few years up til about 2005 when i was graduating from high school. god, some of the things i wrote were just so dumb. some of it really makes me cringe, like did i say those things? esp the entries about exbf 4. ugh, i don't even want to think about the fact that that all happened. and there was a lot of entires about jesse, like did i actually feel all those things that i was talking about? it sure feels like none of that ever happened. i can't even remember really, any of it.
and the other thing that really struck me, was that i was totally boy crazy. i talked about all these different boys all the fucking time, and i have to say i don't remember most of them. i'm reading it and sometimes i'm just like who is it that i'm talking about here?? especially since sometimes i don't include their names or i include a fake name and i can't remember who it's supposed to be.
i am so glad those days are over. i am soooooooo happy to be in a stable relationship. and i don't miss the, oh i wonder if he likes me? or should i ask him out? and all the guessing. i'm so glad to be able to move past all of that. this must be what being an adult is all about.