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@ 4:38 p.m.
man, didn't get a chance to write last friday, because it got real busy. things here have been meh i dunno. haven't done much for my classes lately, and i feel like maybe i'm falling behind. but then again, these days i still feel like i'm busy out of my mind running around that i don't really know what i'm doing. i'm hardly ever home that i dont know where home is supposed to be. i'm never in one place that long.
yesterday was c's birthday. he's finally 21 now so that means we can go out and drink and stuff. man, i used to enjoy being the oldest, but now it looks like it's meaningless. by this i mean that, i loved the fact that i got to drive before all my other friends did, and that for the past couple of years, i've been buying alcohol for my underaged friends, but now they're all able to buy their own drinks so i'm not exactly good for anything now. oh well. we didn't do much for his birthday, but we went out and saw a movie, "paranormal activity". this movie seems to have freaked out both c and marcos. meanwhile, for me though it was scary, i feel that i have seen scarier movies. i dunno what exactly it is about it that scares c and marcos, but it's an interesting movie, and one of the more original ones i suppose. i would recommend seeing it. i could see it scaring people, definitely. i think what's so golden about this movie is that the 2 characters are so relatable.
so i skipped out on work at the other place, and now i'm forced to go for 2 hours tonight. a part of me just feels like i'm sick of everything. above all, i mainly miss c. i have really started to enjoy our time together on the weekends. its weird now that time is limited with him i really miss him but i could seem to have easily taken it for granted while i was with him. and you know how that i've gotten a full time job with tons of money, i really don't mind paying for so much stuff. and also for c's birthday i got him an electric shaver. (those things are expensive apparantly; ~$50) i also got him mirror's edge for xbox. and some credits on swoopo. he seems to really like this auctioning website, he thinks he can win some stuff for cheap. i hope he does, i wouldn't mind a new tv, and an xbox.
not much else has been going on lately. man, i feel so down at the moment. i guess i miss c, but what the fuck else is causing me to feel so down? maybe it's my lack of sleep from last night. god i just feel really exhausted. i can really understand why people who work full time would want to drop out of school. honestly, this is taking it's toll on me. maybe partly because i have to drive an hour to get to my school, and then an hour back. i wish c was closer to me, and i wish this shitty traffic in la wasn't so gay. maybe i should start thinking about where i want to live someday. god, i REALLY don't want to be stuck in this shitty traffic forever.
i guess there really isn't all that much to say, or anything interesting to say. but i just felt like writing. man, i'm feeling depressed lately though. and i'm not really sure what's causing it. maybe it's just that i'm so busy. does being busy cause depression?